how many "plannings" was that?

I remember something the lead singer said when I went to see Superchunk. He said, "OK, we're just going to ease into this set right now. No need to get ahead of ourselves." That's advice I should follow as I compose this entry.

That's the thing about not posting to this site for, what is it now, two and a half weeks? Because see, now I have this urgent need to just rip you out of your shoes with what I'm going to say next. To make up for all that time not communicating, I feel I should be dazzling you with my new understanding of life, making you weep with all of the epiphanies I've had, confounding you with my strengthened grasp of language.

But that won't be happening. Instead, I'm going to give you a brief overview of my personal state of affairs. It will be unprofound, I swear.

So let's begin. I'll start by talking about this morning. I woke up this morning and found I was alone. I still haven't gotten used to it, even though it's been a couple of days since she's left. Eventually, I imagine I'll come to terms with the situation, but now I'm pretty unhappy about it, and want to stay that way for now.

My house has been a mess, I've been in perpetual need of doing laundry, but the place smells nicer that I ever remember. Who knew incense could do so much?

I'm working all day, every day again, which has been tolerable. Still no real projects outside the office, though. As a result I'm in the same place a lot of the time, which results in my having dancing legs when I go to bed at night. Maybe I need more jogs at 3 a.m.

Finally, I am really dumbfounded by how long this past month was. I mean, September has always felt long, what with it straddling two seasons, with it being the time that the kids head back to school, and it being the time in which I assess what I've spent the past year doing. Or not doing. Whatever. It's generally not that much fun, and I really have no interest in doing it again. So I won't this year. I think I've already been through quite enough.

There's too much good stuff happening, too, I think.

So this year, as the leaves change color and fall to the ground, and the weather gets colder, I'm planning, planning, always planning.